This boy. He slapped me into reality recently.
For those of you that don’t know, I am a special event fundraiser. I plan, organize and execute special events to raise money for a non-profit organization. There are three other people on my team that do similar work. About three or four times a year we put on huge events and they are “all hands on deck” situations working 16-18 hour days – for three – four straight days.
I’m entitled to take some flex time but my own events need my attention so I decided I’d come back in. I rarely take my flex time and I have a full bank of PTO time. Recently, after one of those weekends, when I told the kids that I couldn’t take off and needed to come into work The Boy looked a little sad but said “ok, mom.” A half hour later a note slid out from under his bedroom door.
Please don’t go to work tomorrow. I need to spend time with you and I feel like I haven’t seen very much of you lately.
I love you,
Remember when we were young and all we wanted was to grow up, get kissed on a dining room table like Samantha in Sixteen Candles, drive fast, be grown-up. Being a grown-up is not what it is cracked up to be. Samantha – stay on that table FOREVER. Don’t grow up! It’s hard out here!
I usually get up very early in the morning to better my health, the past two weeks I’ve been too exhausted to take care of my wellness the way that I want to, so I’m slipping in little mini workouts throughout the day and trying to eat as healthy as I can because I know I’m not working the calories off the way I should. I’m hosting a “Back To You – Back To School” Challenge to help other women get some balance so they can focus on family, work and their own wellness, but, I’m not sure I’m taking the best care of my family and myself that I can. I feel like a life in balance fraud.
Every day the women (I don’t think there are any men! WHAT THE WHAT?) in our little group inspire me. They are all trying so hard and admitting their challenges, fears, successes. I am so proud of them. I wish I wasn’t beating myself up so hard. Life IS about balance. I know that. One of my favorite quotes reminds me of that very fact:
It’s Wednesday. I have my eyes focused on getting through a very hard day today and tomorrow for work and then I’m taking three full days off for them. Disconnected. While they’re in school Friday I will get the house organized and cleaned and yes, I’ll probably take a little nap before they get home. I want this weekend to be about US 4 Carters. Just us. Family, football, food prep, naps and fun. And naps. Did I mention the naps?